i want a small font , Dammit.

shit.

this is one of the worst but the best days of my life.
the worst , the best.
love is all about a paradoxe.

hey guys.

tomorrow i was so blah and bored. but then mom got home and gave me my Good Charlotte record i've ordered in the internet. I got so happy! Listened to all their anthems out of loud , danced like mad and swot like a dog. But it was gr8. Good Charlotte rocks! Those guys - especially Joel - blow my mind.... Good luck for them and for their carreers.

Anyway... today was nothing more but a shopping day. I've been going in and out stores in the mall , buying clothes , shoes and books. My dad gave me one today : "vestibular" , by lair ribeiro. People know what I think about him (about lair , not about my dad) : he's a fucking quack , a dodger who writes how-to-be-successful-books , but in fact the only person who got successful with his books was him - he earned lots of money from those poor bastards who buy the shit he writes. Anyway , as soons as finish reading my mitology book , i'll start reading the "lair-ribeirish" crap. Lemme see if it works. If the mix Etapa + lair-ribeirish crap + hours and hours of sweating study doesn't work in my attempt to get into a university , i will never what works at all. maybe a red vinyl suit and a "oops i did it again" soppy hit.

Current Mood: excited

yeah , i wasn't approved. i wont be a Unifesp student this year.
i dont give a shit.
i studied like mad this year , but i dont give a shit. why?
because i'm still too imature , too nonsense , too kinky to college life.
i need to take a breath. and an ice cream!

Gee , have you ever felt anxious and nervous like I'm feeling now? My heart is bumping madly , I'm really craving Unifesp results... God knows how it matters, and what it means to me! Well , and it's also to God that my passing to Unifesp is up to... I've praied a lot , and I hope He heard my asks... God , help me! That's all I need now...
Some people have wished me good luck , asked me how I was feeling about all this stuff and also saying nice things :-) . I hope all those wishes were true , because they're really important to me and mean a lot in these anxious , sometimes complicated times...
But this time tomorrow everything will have already been decided , my name will either be or not (God forbid!) in that list , and I'll see to what I'm fated this year.
I wish I could fly , get lost in millions of clouds and feel the cold , freezing , shivering blue breeze of the night blowing onto my face. I wish I wasn't so anxious. Man , you have no idea... I studied like mad this year. All I want now is to be Peter Pan.

Current Mood: anxious

Yeah guys , I know I haven't posted much recently , but here I am , writing my stuff.
I'm really glad my so-called friend monick is back again. She got back to Brazil in the 26th January... Me , Ronaldo , her brother and Renata went to the airport to give her a good , friendly reception. There were no welcome banners or suchlike , but we gave her lots of warm hugs , that's what really matters.
I went to the mall this afternoon , mum bought me 2 t-shirts (a lime green and a orange-and-light-blue stripped one) and stripped trousers. Then we went to the bookstore and she gave me a good book about classic mitology (i simply love greek and roman mitology and everything about greek Gods , Troy and stuff) and a dictionary of english idioms. I really dunno why , but i'm quite addicted to dictionaries , especially the enlgish ones. I love reading them , you may say i'm a little freak , well , if you do i won't tell you're completely wrong :-P
Most of my friends have their school classes begun tomorrow. That's a real shit , school is so fucking boring. I really wish people didn't have to go to school... Well , I hope I get into university (Unifesp classes start in 16th February) , if not (God forbid!) i'll have to study in a prep course , it will be really boring waking up early everyday to study the same shit I've studied for 3 years of high school... anyway , that's life .

Current Mood: calm

gee , i'm such a freak. i've been making and posting and making and posting tons of LJ icons. i guess i'm fucking addicted to it. i made some of justin timberlake and this one of moby that you can see as my default icon. i've made one that i really appreciated , using "Like I Love You" lyric. here he is, beside this post. :o)

Lol , i'm as impolite as Colin Farrell when i'm talking in english. i love to curse , say bad words and even spit! (lol , please desconsider the last one) well , i have such a fucking mania that is saying "fucking" all the fucking time! now a friend (felipe pan) came to my mind... we was cracking funny! he used to study with me in my english classes in my old school. he was always saying , like "oh , this fucking door! this fucking wind! this fucking 'fucking' !"  in fact we weren't really close friends , but i liked his company , and he was worthy of a kiss (a simple one - hunf)... lol

i guess that's it. i've got no more to post , i wish my best friends were online but they aren't . as if i turn on the tv i'll only see silly things like Paris Hilton and her fucking ritzy day-by-day , i'll keep online. even without anyone to talk to!

I used to think family was the most important thing in my life... well , I still think it , but in a different way. Friends sometimes play a role a family could never do, like being more understanding and less overbearing. I was talking to Amy , and she told that the same things that happen to me , happen to her too. Her mother always says bullshit about the things she does in the computer... In fact she will be the co-webmistress of the brazilian official Evanescence website , and her mom told her running it was not worth it , because she wasn't gonna win anything in exchange. Sometimes mothers are experts in being insensitive and rough.

Anyway , I should write about happier things. Today I saw an old Gilmore Girls episode , and Jess was there. I miss Jess a lot. He was quite charming , with his frosting white smile. Gah , I want him back ! :-(

Well , talk more later. Gotta say that amydark  </span>has now a Livejournal too ... Yay , one more friend for my buddy list!

Gee , this raining day is fucking with my head. I need a cloudless , freezing cold night , and a kiss from Eric on bonnet of the car. Like the one Donna won. What a stupid teenie life!

Current Mood: nerdy

As you can see I changed this journal's layout. I guess it's better now. I put some links to my fotologs , photopages and suchlike. Hope you visit it. So that's it. The guys from LiveJournal must think we are blind with this huge font size. I can't change it to a smaller one. Blah. C ya guys.

Current Mood: apathetic

How can families sometimes piss us off so badly? Well , my mom has this holy gift , my grandma sometimes shows she has too. What's so bad about being online , talking to friends by ICQ and surfing on the web? Well , everything , if you ask my mom. She says I don't do anything but using the computer and running my websites , which she calls "an infinite stupid work". Oh , she's so sweet! And in order not to let me use the PC , she locks the office sometimes. Today my grandma told her not to do that , and she didn't . However , grandma came her with her annoying , sharp , witchy voice and said : "your mom told me you should not use the computer until she arrives home". I don't give a damn shit about her and her "do and don't do" things. She must learn about the daughter she has. While I'm using the computer , and "roasting my eyes , damaging my back and my fingers' bones when typing" , there are lot of gals drinking , using drugs , bunking , and stuff. Well , she doesn't think I'm worth it , I suppose. Gee.

Today I dreamt of my real love. I asked my mom if she would approve of my boyfriend if he were , like , 30 . In fact , he's 39. I'll never meet him. So I don't have to worry about it. And my father told me it would be an absurd. Parents know nothing about love. That's why they got married.

Current Mood: annoyed

I dunno why I'm posting here , maybe because I put my current mood here , the song I'm listening to and added a friend to the list , Monique. She's been living in Houston-TX for 1 year and she's living in January 26th. Well , I miss her a lot , we've been just talking by ICQ , but in fact I haven't seen here very often , so I guess when she comes back to Brazil I'll be able to talk to her properly. Monique , love ya gal!

I'd really like to write more , but my mother is freaking me out. She is bothering me , in fact she is a fucking pain in the ass. Well , we have a good relationship , but she is excessively overbearing , and is only happy when people do the fucking this she wants. Gah , I hate it! Fuck her urges!

I gotta go now. At least I can put my feelings somewhere my mother won't be reading and putting her oily nose in the middle of my life. I've got such a "snapish" mom.

See ya , guys.

Current Mood: ecstatic

As I have a blog (http://glam-rock.tk) , I dunno why I've created this journal. On the other side , I know very well. I want to practice my english by writing these words. I really dont expect any visits , any comments , anything. In fact I never thought people liked my sites , my blogs , my things. Well , let's see how it's gonna work.
See ya soon.